Life Or Something Like It

Thanks for hanging in there. I know that I have been a bit rant-y and cranky lately.

I slept about 5 hours last night, and I spent the day with Jess. I am so exhausted.

Big time.

I spoke with her doctor today, and things are not looking good. Jessica's vital signs are unstable, and she needs to gain weight. Her blood sugars are great, thank goodness. Her fever is gone, but she still has tummy pains. She says that she is just not hungry.

I don't know what to do. If she doesn't eat, she won't regain any weight. If she doesn't gain weight, then her vital signs won't improve, and she won't be allowed to come home. I would be very surprised if she comes this week at all.

She has a new doctor this week. Her regular guy is on vacation, so she is seeing someone else. Of course, the buzz word for the day is EATING DISORDER.

I am so frustrated. I want the doctors to look beyond that. I do not think that she has a disorder. I really, honestly, don't.

The days are long and lonely for her, and she is becoming depressed. Of course, that in itself is another red flag for an eating disorder. There is no telling the doctors that she is bummed because she has spent almost all of her Christmas Holidays at the hospital, hooked up to an IV.
The longer that she sits in that room, the worse she feels. You can only watch so many movies and read so many magazines.

I want to badly to bring my baby home. More than anything, I just want her here with us again.