Happy New Year. 2011

There are mere hours left until we start a new year - a new decade - and I am actually looking forward to a new year rather than facing it with dread.
I can remember New Year's Eve as we bid farewell to the 70's. My brother, his bff, a bottle of coke and Dick Clark. I had no idea that the new decade would bring so many changes and heart break. I was 11 years old and thought that life was all unicorns and lollipops.
I can recall heading into the 90's (with husband #1) and the new millennium (with #2).
This year, maybe because I am with husband #3 (third time is the charm) or because I have a brand spanking new adorable grandson, I am feeling remarkably positive about this new decade.
Who am I fooling? It is probably the meds :)
Whatever the case, I am spending time with my family tonight and then having a buffet dinner with more loved ones tomorrow. I can't think of a better way to start the new year.

Happy New Year, friends. See you in 2011!

New Year, New Resolutions

I try not make New Year's Resolutions, because, honestly, I never stick with them. Oh you know, the first day, or maybe even week, I do my best to follow my self imposed new rules. Eventually, since they are self imposed, I usually decide to break my own rules and give up.
This year, I am only making one - to get back into the blog world and start writing again.
It doesn't have to be epic, it just has to be me writing my thoughts, my dreams, about my dull ass life, whatever.
Writing is something that doesn't come easily to me anymore. I am not sure if it is the racing thoughts that come with my bi polar/anxiety mood disorder, or the meds that I take for the disorder. Damned if I do, damned if I don't.
Still, I need to write. The words, thoughts, the urge, is a part of me that I need to acknowledge. So, 2011 will see more of me, my moods, my kids, grandkid, my life in general. I hope that my old friends will be back and I will make some new ones along the way. Christmas Day, Cody, Kayla and Landon. The new family.

Lola, playing in the wrapping paper. Even the pets had a good Christmas.

I LOVE this! I found this Sesame Street Play'n Go Rider. It was brand new, in the box, circa 1986. It will be a little while before Landon can actually ride it, but I can admire it in the meantime.

Christmas was incredible. I don't know if there is anything better (for me) then spending time with my family, eating, laughing, and enjoying each others' company. Maybe that will be my second New Year's Resolution. More time spent with family. That one should be easy enough to keep :)

Happy Birthday, Sweet 16

Happy Birthday, Jessica Lynn. How serendipitous that you are turning 16 on the 16th of December. This is going to be a great year for you, I just know it.

You have brought my life moments of profound joy and uncountable hours of laughter, amazement, and sheer happiness. Your birth enriched the lives of many people, more than you may know.

I have loved you since the day that you were no more than a thought. I have seen you struggle with your health and other issues and you have never complained. I am proud beyond words and my love is deeper than the vastest oceans and seas.

You are my Molly Dolly, my Jesser, my Noodle.

Happy Birthday, my sweet 16.

dear asshats

Dear Stalker-Hacker-Asshat:
You have been hacking into my accounts and using my name for years now. It will not stop me from blogging, speaking my mind, and being the real Bridget Steeves (Allen) Biddie(girl).
There are many other pastimes that you might enjoy equally as much..With your stunning intellect, I suggest starting with something simple - like counting your fingers and watching the Tree House channel.
Mind your own business, take care of your own kids, worry about your own life and stay out of mine.
Thank you-
Biddie

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pc0mxOXbWIU

I know that I am a Nana now, but I can't help loving this song.

This is what has been happening in my life the past (almost) 2 weeks. This little guy with the messy head has stolen my heart.
He is the spitting image of his mom, yet he looks like his dad, too. He also resembles my Dad - not in a Benjamin Button way - but rather he looks like my father did when he was young.
Landon (or Lando, as I call him) changed my world. He has changed the world of many people, I suspect. He brought joy to Shawn's mom on Sunday when he was the guest of honour at Oma's birthday party.
Seriously, it was like a celebrity was in the house. He is slowly making friends with his cousin Ryder, who at a year and a half, is not quite ready to pass the 'baby' torch. At one point, Ryder was showing everyone his finger, where Landon had bitten him in an unprovoked attack.
Kayla is doing an imcredible job as mommy. I am so proud of her.

There is more to my life than just Landon, though.

Jessica turns 16 on the 16 th. She does not want a party, or any kind of fuss. I still haven't decided what to get her, and her big day is quickly approaching.
Christmas is just around the corner too and *gasp* my village is nowhere to be seen. It is still in the basement, gathering dust.

This Nana gig takes more time then I ever thought that it would, but I am loving every minute of it!