Friday, February 26, 2010

I don't even know where to start. KC has moved back home, and I am good with that. We have always told her that she could come back home with us any time. So, this was the time.
Things had not being go well with her and Spencer, and they have decided that maybe they will be better apart. These things happen. They were both very young when they got involved, I think that Spencer was only 19 when KC moved in with him...
Shawn and I had an idea that thie relationship may not be forever (mostly due to thier young ages).
I have tried to stay neutral on this matter. The last thing that you want is to trash the ex only have the happy couple reunite. I doubt that is going to happen, so I am going to rant a wee bit.
This guy has grown up issues to deal with - unpaid bills, items that were purchased together need to be sorted, and maybe Spencer will have to put on big boy pants for 10 minutes so that KC can actually move on with her life.
I HATE this. Watching my kid, my girl, suffering because the person that she was with for 3 years has suddenly decided that he needs to be a kid again.
I am just effing angry. My kid deserves better, she should be feeling great about herself, not wondering what is wrong with her.
She is gorgeous, funny, well educated, personable, intellegent..The list goes on.
I just want to be able to fast forward through all of the pain that KC is in. I can't stand watching her anymore. She deserves respect and love, not this.
I'm sorry...I wanted to be able to say that I was ok with all of this, but the truth is, I think that I am almost as heartbroken as my daughter.

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Mission Impossible

We have three birthdays coming up..Shawn will be 40, Kayla will be 19 and KC will be 22. The girls asked for 'normal' things - movies, t shirts, purses, perfume. I can handle that. KC is easy as heck to shop for - she likes everything :)
Shawn, on the other hand, wants video games for the PlayStation. Not the PS3 that nobody ever plays anymore, but the PS1.
PlayStation ONE?
He might as well ask me to cook.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Has This Ever Happened To You....?

Have you ever reached for a glass in the cupboard only to have it fall on your head? The cupboard, I mean, not the glass.
I thought not.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Wow. Time is flying and I haven't been around much. There has been a lot going on, and my computer is still being wonky, so half of the time I can't blog, facebook or check messages anyway. Here's a quick update.

~ Shawn has another appointment tomorrow for a CT scan. I am keeping my fingers crossed that something actually comes of this..

~ Shawn's mother is STILL in the hospital. It has been over two weeks now and every day is the same thing - maybe tomorrow she can go home.

~ Shawn's screw guns were stolen, AGAIN, this time by a co worker and possibly a family member. Isn't that nice?

~ Someone that both Shawn and I have known for a loong time passed away last week. He was not exactly a friend of mine, but I did know him, and it just seemed so sudden. We are both still so shaken by it, ya know? So fast and unexpected, and whamo, here we are at the funeral home, again.

~ Kayla has a new job, and she is loving it. It is only part time, so she is looking for another job so that she can save for school.

~ Speaking of school, KC is now DONE and working for a dentist in Waterloo. She LOVES her job, and I am soo proud of her.

~ Jessica is still st her school, and that is where she will be staying. I had a meeting with a VP and a guidance counseller, and took Grandma Lynn along. She kept me calm and on track...The bottom line? Jessica's family doc wrote us a letter suggesting that she would do well in her current school and that moving to another might trigger stress and high blood sugar. I am beyond relieved. (Thank you Dr.D)

~ We got a new(ish) king size bed that is large enough for Shawn, the dogs, and me! It is heaven on earth!

Whoo hoo! I promise I will be heading over to visit you all soon :)

Monday, February 01, 2010

Dear Blogger................................

Dear Blogger -

What a week! The puppy party was a smash hit, with all five of the babies, their new families and our mommy and daddy dogs here, it was insane, chaotic, and just plain wonderful.

I am fairly certain that Ruby remembered her pups. They all remembered us - mind you, we spent countless hours bottle feeding them while they were with us. They have all grown into well adjusted, loving, dogs.

Things even went well with my sisters in law and their husbands. I have to admit, this was a big deal for me. I always get nervous when I have to the whole 'Happy Homemaker' thing, but I pulled it off!

I think that we will make this an annual event. We have to - it was that much fun.

Shawn and I had an interesting group counselling session on Saturday afternoon. We signed up for this class as a way to get our toes wet, so to speak, and to see if this place is the place for us. Well, I can say without a doubt that this is NOT the right place for us, but I am still glad I went. Either way I see it as a step in the right direction, even if the lady in charge is a bit of a tree hugging share the love, come on gimme a hug type. Sweet lady, just not right for us. We are checking out another place next week and I am hoping that it will be a better fit.

Shawn's mother has been ill. She is diabetic, and now her kidneys are failing. The doctors seem to think that she may only need dialysis as a temporary measure, but I am skeptical. She is 86 ish and her health has been failing for some time.

I am doing my best to be there for Shawn, but this is a hard one for me. We all grieve differently, and in this way, his family is so very unlike mine. We (my girls, my Dad, Grandma Lynn) are all touchy feely gimme some sugar kind of folks. Shawn's family..? Not so much. I want so badly to throw my arms around his mother and hold her tight, but that is just not done.

Speaking of Shawn, we finally had that appointment that we were waiting for. It did not go well. For whatever reason, the family doc sent Shawn to a surgeon that specializes in tumors. Just not in orthopedics....So, off we go for more tests, and Shawn is feeling defeated. It seems as though no one is taking his pain seriously and I am frightened that no one ever will. I can never let Shawn know this, I am doing my best to stay strong. He has been there for me so many times, I need to do this. I NEED to be strong, there is no other option.

Saturday evening gave me an opportunity to pay it forward. My dearest, bestest friends ever were in town, dealing with a loss...So often I unable to actually BE there, cuz, you know, we don`t have a car and getting around ain`t easy.

It so great to see Miss Sally, even under the circumstances. My family and friends rock, and I am so beyond lucky to have them. I hope that they know that.

We also finally got our health cards, dealt with (boring) legal issues and the principal of Jessica`s school. She is hell bent on transferring Jess to a different school, despite the fact that the other school is way farther away, I would have to buy all new uniforms, and Jessica has been crying almost everyday over the stress of it. She LOVES her school, and her blood sugars have been bouncing around since all of this started. I wonder if Mrs. T.H really understands who she is dealing with here. I won`t let my daughter get bullied and she WILL be back for semester two. You can count on it.

This week has been a roller coaster of emotions and I am so relieved that it is finally OVER. I plan on doing nothing except hanging with my dogs and catching up on Lost.