I heard from the shrinks office today. His receptionist called me to give me an appointment - for February.
Ok. I can live with that because he has sent my Rx to the pharmacy, and I can start again ASAP.
I was elated. This is what I have been waiting for, afterall. I just want to get well enough to function and be happy.
The pharmacy called me, too.
Guess what they told me?
My meds are not covered by disability.
So, now, with no appointment until February, I am right back where I started. My shrink is unlikely to prescribe me a diiferent drug, since he won't be able to monitor me for the first 2 months.
I am so done. I don't know what else to do.
I am either crying, or sleeping, or NOT sleeping, or just....taking up space. I don't know how much longer I can go on like this. I am following the rules, doing what they ask of me....It just doesn't seem to matter.
I'm going to bed. It's after 11:00 and I am tired. Well, honestly, I am always tired.