Thursday, December 06, 2007


I heard from the shrinks office today. His receptionist called me to give me an appointment - for February.

Ok. I can live with that because he has sent my Rx to the pharmacy, and I can start again ASAP.

I was elated. This is what I have been waiting for, afterall. I just want to get well enough to function and be happy.

The pharmacy called me, too.

Guess what they told me?

My meds are not covered by disability.


So, now, with no appointment until February, I am right back where I started. My shrink is unlikely to prescribe me a diiferent drug, since he won't be able to monitor me for the first 2 months.

I am so done. I don't know what else to do.

I am either crying, or sleeping, or NOT sleeping, or just....taking up space. I don't know how much longer I can go on like this. I am following the rules, doing what they ask of me....It just doesn't seem to matter.

I'm going to bed. It's after 11:00 and I am tired. Well, honestly, I am always tired.



Anonymous said...

So, can you get them if you come up with the money? I would be more than willing to join in with others and help raise the $. d

captain corky said...

This fucking blows! I hope things change for you.

Heidi the Hick said...

I can't believe this. Mental illness is not taken care of. It's such bullshit. How hard is it to take care of people who need help? Disability? Yeah, I think if you can't f***ing get out of bed because you'd rather DIE, that's a f***ing disability.

this makes me so angry.

The whole attitude towards mental health is an embarrassment. How can we have a productive society when we keep sweeping this under the rug?

Pull up our socks and cheer up and relax.


Bid, listen, I know this isn't going to feel like it helps at all, but please focus on the fact that you got an appointment. Don't think of it as being next year. Think of it as being only 7 or 8 weeks away. Next week it'll be closer. Please hang on. You're still here, your heart is still beating.

It is not fair to make you wait when you've already waited long enough but please hang on.

And in the meantime, maybe call up your pshrinks office and give the receptionist an earful Yeah I know seh didn't decide that those meds won't be covered but someobdy has to hear that this is wrong.

It's your mental health for god's sake. It always pissed me off that I had to pay for that s***.

When I am chosen Queen of the World I will change it!!!!!!!!!!!

CindyDianne said...

I don't even know what to say. Hand in there seems not enough. Don't worry, an impossibility. Just know I am thinking of you and please listen to Heidi!

CindyDianne said...

hang in there, that is.

New laptop, new keyboard configuration = typos from Cindydianne

Marni said...

Hang in there honey -- one day at a time. It will be here before you know it. In the mean time, I'd call the docs office again and again and again just to see if they can give you someting - anything - to help until Feb.


Canadian flake said...

So sorry you are having such a hard time...this kind of crap makes me so mad...makes me wanna grrrrrrrr at all of those idiot doctors...

Wish I could say something that would help...remember you ARE loved...

katy said...

oh girl i cant beleive this i really cant, please try and get to see your shrink, they cant leave you like this.
try and be strong, love you and please take care of yourself x

Anonymous said...

Oh man, I'm sorry.
I don't even know what to say to you.

I wish there was something I could do.



Vodka keeps me sane. I won't recommend it. Works for me?

Turn up at your shrinks door and refuse to leave until he sorts it out. Action speaks louder than words eh? x

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Tod said...

Shit. What a fucking rollercoaster ride this whole thing has been for you. Couldn't they have worked out if the meds were covered before getting your hopes up? Stupid idiots.

Heidi makes some good points and you have come this far. try to think of it as just 8 weeks away.

Gabriel said...

Biddie, I know it's easy to say it when you're not the affected person, but... take it easy. Be calm, follow Heidi's advise and try to look at the time in terms of a fraction (like 0.166 years instead of 2 months)... That's what I do when my mother comes. I say "it's just a weekend" instead of "she's going to stay for 2,880 minutes!" :-)

I don't really know what to tell you. I'm at the Atlanta Airport right now, waiting for my flight that is -I just heard- 30 min delayed. We will see you tomorrow when we deliver a cake to your place :-)

rain said...

Oh crop. I agree with all the above. Seriously. Sorry you are dealing with this.

dilling said...


Jay Cam said...

wow you have a tough situation there.. but you will work it out!

Christine said...

Have missed a lot not being online lately -
Ask the doc/staff to file an exception form - it's either a form 8 or a form 4 - and fax it URGENT to OHIP - that's how I was able to get part of my TPN covered ($1600/mo)

Anonymous said...

I looked online for you. We have a pharmacare program in BC so I figured you would have a similar one in Ontario. This is one you could check. Also Christine, who left you a comment, left some advice that may be part of this program.

Stinkypaw said...

Hope things get better for you. Sending you good thoughts.

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