Sunday, August 22, 2010

It's Like This

Just a few random thoughts that are fluttering about in my head -

You have to be FATHER before you can be a GRANDfather. Think about it.

Some people are real bozo's when they booze. Put the beer/rum/vodka/whiskey DOWN and drink some water. You might like it.

Taking someone out to supper or making them a table in arts n crafts does NOT make up for years of neglect and/or abuse.

I have the best and coolest friends in the world.

Forgiveness can be a difficult and loong process. I am still working on it.

I may not be married in the conventional way - church-preacher-signed on the dotted line way, but I feel more married to Shawn than I ever did to Rudi or Geoff.

I hate, I mean HATE that I have all sorts of 'issues' that run my life.

I am so tired of explaining to people why I don't have a job. If it were your business, you would know and there would be no reason to ask.

My father has been gone for 11 years and I still dream about him almost every night.

My head is more cluttered than my house.

My blog buddies know me better than most of the people that are related to me, and I am ok with that.


Coffeypot said...

"Forgiveness can be a difficult and loong process." You are so righ. Hateing is much easier, so I go that way. For me, to forgive is to put a 38 slug in the heart. But I'm feeling much better now...with the meds and all. And they keep the gun locked up and the key hidden.

Biddie said...

coffeypot - I don't own a gun, which, really, is a good thing.
Forgiveness does not come easy for me. My Dad, on his deathbed (really, I am not kidding) asked me to work on forgiving certain people.
What else can I do??

Anonymous said...

Amen, sister.

Gabriel said...

I have a similar problem. I can -sometimes- forgive. But I never forget...

Biddie said...

Gabriel - It's good to know that I am not the only one that struggles with forgiveness. I am still working on it.
I doubt that I will ever forget, either.

Biddie said...

Oh, I almost forgot - thanks for the AMEN!

Anonymous said...

Some people just do not get the while concept of parenting. Like a verb, 'to parent', an action word.
How can you expect to be a grandparent if you have never been a real parent? Donating DNA does not a parent make.
I know what you mean about the drinking, too. I have a brother that I love to death but he can't put down the booze. He loses jobs, friends, opportunities and he still doesn't see it.

I don't know what to do to get him to see the damage that he is doing to his wife and daughter..
Ok, that was a bit ranty, wasn't it ?
Sorry :)
Just yeah, I see where you are coming from.


Anonymous said...

Also, I wanted to say that you really don't need to explain to anyone why you don't - or you do - work. Why do so many people feel the need to be so freaking nosy??