Monday, August 13, 2007

Ok, I'm back. I don't after all, have Strep FINGERS. My sterp throat seems to be gone, I just have a bad cold now, maybe some form allergies...ARGH. I still feel crappy, but not as bad as before.

Anyway, things are pretty much the same here. The new carpet is down, thank goodness. It's a different look, but the other shit was soo threadbare and smelly, I am so glad to be rid of it.

We are still losing half of Shawn's pay every week. We haven't gone any farther with the bankrupcy yet, because we can't afford to. We're stuck. I can't see how we'll go on from here. We haven't been able to get our rent money together, and in a week, my internet will be gone. I can't figure out what to do....

I have heard back from disability, though. Not a yes or a no, just that they recieved my papers and are considering them. I have no idea how long this process will take, but I am one step closer. I guess that is good news.

Wednesday is the Beyonce concert, and as of today, I have NO IDEA how I am getting myself and 2 kids to Toronto to meet Heidi and her girl. The tickets were free, but I didn't count on our money situation being quite this bleak. Heidi is probably having a panic attack after reading this....

Shawn keeps saying DON'T WORRY.

Oh, ok, then. The situation seems so impossible.

I guess that if there is any good news, it would that Shawn and I are better than ever. As a couple. It's not really something that I can explain. Things are just so GOOD, even with all of this stress.

How can I be so HAPPY with my life falling apart?

22 comments:

Burfica said...

I am glad you are feeling better.

When did you file the disability. Usually it takes about 6 months after you have filed for it.

I just had to split up a tiny bit of money we had to go on the kids lunch ticket and in my gas tank, so I could get him to school. Hopefully I can get a few gallons and a month lunch ticket on payday.

And I know what you mean about being closer to your man. We have had some very rough financial times, still are, and we just seem closer and closer.

Good Luck and keep your head up.

Biddie said...

burfica - It's only been about a month since my papers were filed. I don't expect to hear anything for awhile...Would be nice, though.
I don't know how much longer we can live on $200 a week. I lay awake at night, and it's allI can think of. Thankfully, my kids don't go back to school until September 4th, cuz, I don't have bus fare for them. I hope that things will have picked up by then.
Somehow, Shawn and I are SO much closer. Usually stress ($$$$) drives a wedge between us, but we are closer than ever.
I hope that things pick up for you, too. Things can only get better, right?

whimsicalnbrainpan said...

I am glad to hear that you are feeling better and are happy in spite of all the crap you are having to deal with.

I have a signal! It is sketchy (don't know how long it will hold) and not the one from the school, but it's a welcome sight (as is your blog).

Biddie said...

whimsical - Yay! we have contact! I may not next week...SIGH...but this week, I'm still good.
I DO feel good, oddly enough. Maybe it's the meds? Maybe it's the love of a good man...?

Heidi the Hick said...

Don't question why you feel good! Just feel good!

I am feelin reasonably okay- my kids are home, the agent who rejected my book gave me some awesome advice, and the weather's beautiful. However, I am still fretting about that darn concert!!!!!!!!!!

Biddie said...

heidi- advice is GOOD, and I do feel GREAT, in many ways.
I am fretting about the GD concert, too. Shawn keeps saying don't worry, but nothing has changed...

debi said...

I am happy to hear you are feeling better. I know how you feel. We live on next to nothing. Thank God we have no house payment.Even without it I am rolling pennies once a month for toilet paper. School starts tomorrow here. If Cady had not bought lots of new clothes for her vacation in Calif I don't know what we would do. I am just a line above empty in my car.Zero $ in the bak. I have a little cash (like under 100.00) stashed for food and gas. Gotta go 9 more days till payday. I am feeling okay about it cuz it could be worse. I love that you are so aware that you are okay. That you and your hubby are getting along in the face of money trouble. It always causes fights for us. Cady got free tickets to OZZFEST and guess what, we couldn't afford the free concert. What a joke.Joe would have had to take 2 days off work and the gas money and food ect. Free is not free.I hope you get to go. You are a very upbeat gal and I wish I could be the same.

Biddie said...

debi - I am not ALWAYS upbeat. If we miss this concert, the girls will never forgive me...there will be no happiness here. My sister got me the tickets (worth over $500, best seats in the house)and I have done NOTHING with the girls all summer. I HAVE to get to the concert.
We are always struggling with money issues, so this is nothing new for me. We are alwys rolling for toilet paper, too.
I DO feel good though. Shawn and I are doing better than ever, and it wasn't always like that. There was a time when we would have been at each other throats...We are just working on US, and it seems to be working..:)
Too bad you missed Ozzfest, that would made Kayla cry for a week.

Canadian flake said...

Hang in there biddie....I will be praying hard for you that something will work out. I have been where you are ....it is never easy. I am sending good thoughts and prayers your way.

her indoors said...

of course you deserve to be happy.
it sucks huh you need to go bankcrupt cause you have no money, but you need money to go bankcrupt, just where is the logic!
glad you are feeling better x

captain corky said...

I'm glad you're happy and things are going really good with your Man. I hope things work out for you guys.

paddy said...

If my Lotto numbers come up tomorrow Wed. I promise to send you the money, but I must warn you I've been playing for over 20 years and have never won, but who knows- this offer my clinch it. Wouldn't it be nice.
Y;-)Paddy
PS: I'm glad things are not getting you down too much. Don't give up the hope.

Tod said...

It is good that things are so fab with you and Shawn. It's a shame that the other stuff sucks but then you probably don't care cos you're getting great sex! ;)

coffeypot said...

I know why you feel so good. You know me.

Biddie said...

Canadian Flake - Thanks for the thoughts and prayers. I'll take them. I can use all of the help that I can get :)

Her Indoors - I am feeling much better today, except for the money troubles. Hopefully, things will turn around soon.

Corky - Things are GREAT with my man. Never better. I hope that the rest will fall into place.

Paddy - That's so sweet! It would be nice to have enough money to get by..I am trying to stay upbeat. I am feeling a bit better, and things are good with Hubby, so it's not all bad :)

Tod - What, did everyone get the memo? LOL. You're killing me, here.

Coffeypot - You know it!

Gardenia said...

Well, better to be happy with life falling apart than depressed! I tell you I hate living on such a limited income. I've done it and its no fun.

mjd said...

Happy is good. Seeing Beyonce should be great fun. Maybe by concert time, you will feel oh so much better. Take care,Biddie.

FOUR DINNERS said...

don't worry be happy....I like Shawn

dilling said...

sometimes facing the onslaught of crap out there can bring you closer together...it's true.

Stinkypaw said...

Glad you're feeling better and sometimes it's in the worst moment that we realise that we are afterall happy! Take care of yourself!

jAMiE said...

Hi Biddie...glad you are feeling better but i'm sorry to hear of your financial woes...i will keep my fingers crossed for you that something works out.

CindyDianne said...

Where are those incriminating photos?