I Feel A Rant Coming On............

ARGH! I am so pissed off.

I finally have the papers that I need to get my meds covered, and I can't reach my shrink!

Seriously. I have lost track of how many times I called. I have called everyday last week, and I left several messages. Today is Tuesday, and I have called no less than 5 times since yesterday. I have left at least 3 messages since then. No matter when I call, the phone always goes to voicemail.

I understand that Doctors are busy, but COME ON. My phone calls have not been returned once.

This doctor works FIVE hours a day in his office. On Wednesdays, he works from 11-3, with a one hour lunch break. I can see that he is very obviously over worked.

I need to start my meds all over again, because it has been so long since I have had any. I can understand that. The thing is that the last time I started my mood stabilizer, it made me feel like crap for the first two weeks. I remember talking to Heidi and Jethro on the phone, crying because I was bottoming out. It was better after the first couple of weeks. Then there was the other side effect.

Sleep.

You might think that this would not be a problem. Heck, normally sleeping is NOT something that I complain about. I LOVE to sleep.

What I do NOT love, however, is falling asleep sitting up. That's right. In the middle of a conversation, or watching tv, or even folding laundry.

Christmas will soon be here, and I do not want to spend it sleeping or crying because I feel like crap.

I think that I have been very patient here. I don't expect the doctor to drop everything to call me, but it has been weeks since he has contacted me.

I am at my witts end here. I don't know what else to do. I feel like calling him and letting know how angry I am, but if he won't return my calls when I am being polite, then I seriously doubt that a phone call from me dripping with sarcasim (They don't call me sarcastro for nothing) will help.

Has he dropped me as a patient? Doesn't he have to tell me if he has?

HELLO! He is the mental doctor for mental cases, for crying out loud! I feeling more and more mental by the minute.

Ok.

Any suggestions?