Wednesday, July 04, 2007

One of my aunts is very ill right now. I got a phone call last night telling me that she is in a coma is not expected to survive the next few days. I like my aunt very much. She is sweet and good natured, and nothing at all like Bio Betty.....

Oh, yeah, did I mention that? Bio Betty and the rest of the family will be arriving from the 4 corners of the world. I know how selfish this is going to sound. I do.

I am not ready for this.

I think that if I have to deal with Bio Betty and some of the others, I just may end up the hospital. I don't want to see anyone. I'm not ready. It's only been a year since I last saw Betty, and I just can NOT go there again.

I hate this. I have a huge family. Most of them don't bother with me, even though we live in the same city. I have have an aunt and 2 cousins on my facebook. That's the extent of my family involvement. Thanks to Bio Betty, I am pretty much a stranger among my own people. Of course, there is always the OTHER side of my family...You know, the side that disowned me and stole my inhieritance.

I just want to be left alone. I do. I just want this all to go away. Maybe I can just hide under a big pile of coats until this all blows over....

20 comments:

her indoors said...

sorry to hear about your aunt, thoughts with you, and you dont have to see anyone you dont want to so sod them. if you want to visit your aunt ring and check that no one else is there. (((hugs)))

Biddie said...

her indoors - That is what is thinking of doing...Can't stand the thought of spending time with Bio Betty. Not enough downers in town for that.

Gardenia said...

You take care of yourself. You do not owe anything to anyone - and if you do, you know in your heart who you need to hug and who you need to stay away from. Do not torture yourself with the wicked living, your sweet Aunt will know your heart.

Does Bio stand for biological poison? (smile)

mjd said...

My thoughts are with you. Gardenia seems to have a very sensible outlook. Take care, Biddie.

Biddie said...

gardenia - thanks. :)

mjd - thank you, too! :)

Heidi the Hick said...

Oh no. Which aunt???

I agree- call ahead and find a time to visit when you can be alone. And do visit.

hugs to you.

Heidi the Hick said...

One more thing...

those people who are technically related to you do not have any idea who you really are, and what you're all about. If they did, they would get it too. They would love you.

I kinda feel sorry for them for being so ignorant.

hang in there okay?

Biddie said...

heidi - This is my aunt kaddy..yup, that's her real nickname..betty's little sis. she is pretty cool. it was her hubby that fell in love with ruby last year...i like her alot, but she in the hospital where my OTHER mother works. it just better and better, doesn't it?
btw, betty has decided that it is just too much for her to see her ilittle sister like this, so she will only be coming AFTER my aunt dies. poor betty. lucky can't come...not enough $$$$, still on oxygen, and now she broke her foot, but of course, TMOC is coming.
gawd help me....
you're right. they don't know me. thanks. :)

Heidi the Hick said...

(smack forehead)

She decided it's too much for her to see her sister like this...and that's why she's just going to wait to show up until after she dies...

It's things like this that make me wonder if you actually do share DNA with this woman, or if you are some kind of medical miracle. GAWD.

dilling said...

If it comes to pass, your aunt can now hear everything you need to say to her. Love is the only thing that matters now. If she is in a coma, absolutely, she can HEAR you, she is beyond her "self". Say what you need now. Don't bring anger into it...stay home, be safe, say all you need. It will be all she needs to hear. Promise.
much love

Biddie said...

Heidi - LOL. I have never thought of myself as a medical miracle! I just might start, tho!
She really is something, isn't she? Lucky and I were just stunned, you know? I told Lucky that I would move heaven and earth to get to her...( and you, Heidi), and she said, well, yeah, I knew that....She knew that. Can you imagine? She KNEW that? Poor Betty. She really doesn't have anyone, does she?
Anyway, she isn't here yet, cuz the air would feel different, and I can still breathe...Thank God.

Dilling - I might just try to sneak in when no one is around. You are right though, and I know it. I still talk to my dad and he's been gone for 8 years. I can do the same with my aunt. :)

Nonny said...

Can't you just tell them you were recently exposed to SARS or that antibiotic resistant form of TB and have been quarantined?

* (asterisk) said...

Sorry to hear about your aunt, Biddie. Families can be great; and then they can be a huge pain in the ass. A necessary evil, I suppose. Hope you're able to find some peace one way or another.

captain corky said...

Sorry about your Aunt, Biddie. But don't forget about me, your long lost cousin Keith. He's on face book too. Hang in there. ;)

Biddie said...

nonny - Great idea! LOL! Maybe I'll use that one! Thanks :)

*(asterisk) - sigh...you're not kidding...here's hoping for peace, for everyone.

corky - oh yeah, cousin Keith! he's not a bad guy! His wife is cool! He always misses the family reunions, tho.....maybe he'll make the next one...?

Tod said...

Keep your chin up Biddie!

Canadian flake said...

Hang in there Biddie and know you are in my thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry to hear about your Aunt. Maybe the lining in the cloud is that she isn't suffering in a coma...I know that probably doesn't help much. Be strong and I will keep praying for you. Anything else I can do, just let me know.

Four Dinners said...

This is real easy to say I know.

Be stronger than that and stronger than them. Go see your Aunt and if any of them show up and breath out of line smile and give tham the finger. Don't say a word just the finger.

And don't walk away either. After the finger just sit there and smile.

It'll freak 'em out. Guarenteed.

Good luck babe x

Kate Isis said...

Hun, I can't add to the advice you recieved suffice to say spend the time you ned with your aunt and let no one put you off. As to the rest of the family just don't participate in their crap and give them teh satisfaction of seeing you upset.
much love and hugs xoxoxoxox

her indoors said...

thinking off you biddie ((((hugs))))