Sunday, July 22, 2007


This is what it's all about. Family. Real family. See the smiling lady in the brown sweater?
That's my (older) cousin Wendy. She was the closest that I ever came to big sister until Lucky came along. She took me rollerskating, took me on Road trips,(and never complained about the numerous pitstops along the way) did my hair, taught me about boys, and called me Spinner.
I adored her.
The other lady is my aunt Dolena. She bought me red dancing shoes when I was 4. I thought that I could dance forever. She is my Godmother and she has taught me many lessons over the years. I bet that she doesn't even realize it.
I look at this photo, and I feel good. These are the people that count. Screw the rest of em.

16 comments:

Gardenia said...

What a wonderful picture and what a wonderful post....the ones that count outdo the ones that shouldn't count by a long, long shot!

Marni said...

You look so happy! And you are right -- keep the good ones around. Don't let anyone else bring you down. You deserve to be happy.

her indoors said...

so very true Biddie, the ones that count are the only ones. keep on smiling

Kate Isis said...

It takes alot of pain and alot of courage to get to the point where you know who matters. Its a hard road but you got there hun. Much hugs xoxoxox

captain corky said...

I'm glad that you feel good! You deserve it Biddie. ;)

coffeypot said...

A feel good picture, but I think Heidi might kick your butt after that last sentance. You look real happy, though.

Biddie said...

gardenia - I just love that photo and I had to post it. The past week was torture, spending all of that time with Betty, and I had to find something good out of all of it. So, this was it. Well, this and all of the free meals.

marni - Thank you. I'm working on it.
I saw my shrink earlier in the day before I had too see Betty, and he was urging me to tell him what was on my mind...I poured it all out...Everything. Cried. Big, heaving, sobs.
He looked at me, said "My dear, you have alot of problems. Come back in 6 weeks."
That was it. I knew that I would have another way to deal with this. So, I'm working on it. :)

her indoors - I'm trying. Good friends help. :)

Kate Isis - I feel there today, but tomorrow might be altogether different again...That's the way it is. I'm working on it though....

Corky - Feeling a little better everyday.

coffeypot - I meant screw the rest of em as in Betty and mission Mary. Heidi and Jethro have been my biggest supporters for YEARS (poor sods). They are family, for sure. I do wish that Heidi had been with me for the funeral and some of this other crap. Living so far away sucks sometimes......

Heidi the Hick said...

I'm heeeeeere!

It was a weird week, knowing what you were going through.

(I gotta say...I hope this doesn't sound horribly self pitying, but when the shrink says, "You have a lot of problems" doesn't that kind of feel better? Like, yeah, it's not just feeling sorry for yourself. It's validation. Say it- PROBLEMS LOTS OF EM- and now get on with it. That's what I think anyways.)

Call ya when Jethro leaves for work. xo

Biddie said...

Heidi - ...Hmmm. Validation. I guess that you're right. Either way, I am beginning to feel better. Slowly, but surely.
Nothing that a little dose of POISON won't cure.

CindyDianne said...

My opinion is that family you choose is the best family anyway. If you choose them and they happen to be related - cool. If not, the Heidi and Jethro's of the world are just as good, if not better...

Biddie said...

cindydianne - You're right,of course. It's just that even at 38, I still can't quite get over the pain of my mother(s) rejection. I'm trying, but it hurts like hell.

Canadian flake said...

beautiful pic...glad you have good memories like that. We all need those.

Biddie said...

canadian flake - I'm soo glad that I went to the bbq. I almost didn't go b/c my Mum was there. She did her best to scare me off, and a couple of years ago, she would have. I caught her glaring at me a couple of times...
I had fun, in spite of her. I really love my cousins, and my aunts and uncles. It's good for the kids to have that connection, too. Yup, made some good memories.

mjd said...

You can tell by looking at the smiling faces that these are good people. I love red shoes. I think with red shoes you can dance forever.

Biddie said...

mjd - I looked for a photo of the red shoes, but my scanner isn't working, anyway. Too bad, because they were my fav's. Aunt Dolena rocks. Wendy is cool, too. I meant to tell everyone that she is one that helped me out of my cheese incedent a few months back.
Yup. Good people.

coffeypot said...

Sorry! I misunderstood. Quiet common for me, but I appologize for missing the obvious. DUH!!