I got a phone call from John, or as KC calls him, The Germanator.
I will not be going tomorrow, and neither will Shawn. I just can't. Even if Shawn could go, I know that I can't. I can say that I will, but more than likely, my panic will overwhelm me, and I won't make it.
I did speak with John. He assures me that he does not want to kick me out. He sounds so sincere....I want to trust him, but ....
I'll let you know tomorrow how it goes. Keep your fingers crossed, and the prayers coming. For some reason, I feel hopeful.