Monday, October 01, 2007

Today

Today is one of those days that I dread. I have to take Jessie to see her specialist. I always feel like a little kid being dragged into the principals office. Her doctor is a great doctor,but I dread it just the same.

Jessica's blood sugars have NEVER been where they should be. Since the day that she was diagnosed with diabetes when she was 3, we have struggled. Now that she is older, and away from me so much, be it at school or with her friends, I have even less control over what happens with her. We check her bg, buy her the sugar free stuff, make sure that she does her needles....It doesn't seem to matter. Her boold sugars stay the same.

SIGH..

It all comes back on me because I am the mom. Of course it does. I can barely manage my own life right now, never mind keeping on top of Jessica. I always worry that her sperm donor will put up a fuss and start custody proceedings. Silly, really, because he hasn't seen her years, doesn't call, and is disputing the amount of support that he should be paying. He has become very spiteful, hateful even, and I just can't shake the feeling that he is looking for any reason to cause me trouble. (He has been a real pain lately, I just haven't blogged about it. It brings me down too much to even discuss it)

So, in another hour or so we will head out to the hospital to see her doctor. I am keeping my fingers crossed that everything goes well. I will breathe easy when we are home again. Wish us well.

16 comments:

saly said...

Biddie- Be sure and let us know how it turns out. I didn't know your daughter has diabetes. That is tough to manage at any age. I'll be thinking about you today!

Sal

Burfica said...

i'll keep my fingers, legs, arms, toes, and eyes all crossed foryou.

Bunny said...

sending good vibes & keeping my fingers crossed for ya!!!

Tod said...

Everything is crossed here too. xxx

her indoors said...

hope all went well biddie, my fingers, toes, legs and arms crossed, well the legs might have somat to do with needing a wee!
thinking of you sweetie x

dilling said...

what's the word?

Phoenix5 said...

Biddie, I feel for you. I've always been hypoglycemic, so I have the opposite problem. Hard to deal with when you're a kid. Have you looked into alternative therapies? Maybe see a naturopath, or a holistic practitioner. Sometimes there are other solutions, if you know where to look. But you do have to look, because the government does it's best to prevent them from being known, to keep us sick and dependant on drugs. All the best to you and your beautiful daughter.

coffeypot said...

What can you do, Biddie? It's just another gray hair in your head.

Marni said...

I've got all kinds of hugs and good vibes heading your way.

Let us know how she's doing!

FOUR DINNERS said...

She's got beatiful eyes n she's your baby n she'll be fine.

Trust me I'm from Oldham

Canadian flake said...

Hope all went well today hon. Please let us know how you made out. As hard as I am finding it at times to be a diabetic, I am grateful neither of my gremlins have it yet...hopefully they never will.

Y'all are in my thoughts and prayers.

Gabriel said...

There's nothing worse than watching your kids get sick. My little one has a fever right now, and I don't like it a bit.

As many have said, we'll keep thinking of you and your daughter.

As per the 'sperm donor', well, we're talking about a dick after all, aren't we? :-)

Balloon Pirate said...

Stopping by from Heidi's blog. I'll say a prayer for you and Jessica.

Stay concerned, but don't be afraid.

yeharr

millhousethecat said...

She's a beautiful girl and it's a lovely picture of her.

Stopping by after reading Heidi's blog.

My fingers and toes are crossed and I know you'll have a good outcome. Keep a positive attitude!

rain said...

Fingers, toes, arms, legs, and eyes crossed for you. Hang in there - thinking of you, bid.

LadyBronco said...

Mom ~

You done good making sure she is getting the help she needs.

Your little girl will be fine - you just keep the faith, okay?

Sending my prayers to you both.