Today is one of those days that I dread. I have to take Jessie to see her specialist. I always feel like a little kid being dragged into the principals office. Her doctor is a great doctor,but I dread it just the same.
Jessica's blood sugars have NEVER been where they should be. Since the day that she was diagnosed with diabetes when she was 3, we have struggled. Now that she is older, and away from me so much, be it at school or with her friends, I have even less control over what happens with her. We check her bg, buy her the sugar free stuff, make sure that she does her needles....It doesn't seem to matter. Her boold sugars stay the same.
It all comes back on me because I am the mom. Of course it does. I can barely manage my own life right now, never mind keeping on top of Jessica. I always worry that her sperm donor will put up a fuss and start custody proceedings. Silly, really, because he hasn't seen her years, doesn't call, and is disputing the amount of support that he should be paying. He has become very spiteful, hateful even, and I just can't shake the feeling that he is looking for any reason to cause me trouble. (He has been a real pain lately, I just haven't blogged about it. It brings me down too much to even discuss it)
So, in another hour or so we will head out to the hospital to see her doctor. I am keeping my fingers crossed that everything goes well. I will breathe easy when we are home again. Wish us well.