Thursday, May 07, 2009


Today was the funeral for my friend L's daughter. I was unable to attend, as it was out of town. The death of this child has me thinking about my own life and the many blessings that I have in my life.
I have three gorgeous girls, and I know where they are and what they are doing (for the most part. No mom knows EVERYTHING).
Jessica is healthy and gaining weight, she looks incredible, and is nearly as tall as me. She has not been in the hospital in over a year (yay!) for anything other than check ups.
Our rent is paid, IN FULL. We paid off every red cent that we owed, and it feels great! We manage to pay our rent every month, on time. Whoo hoo! There was a time when that was a huge struggle for us.
Kayla is graduating from high school next month! She is going to her prom in a couple of weeks, and I am almost as excited as she is. Wait until you see the photos!
My relationship with Shawn's family has vastly improved since his sister passed away. I think that Mary would be delighted to know that we are all spending time together again. Shawn and I spend an afternoon here or there at his parents place, doing yard work, checking in on his mom, or just visiting. I like it :)
I have a wonderful circle of friends. I do. I am super close to my X mother in law, and my two - three - best friends have been there for me since I was a kid.
I am on my meds..This is huge, since it took me years to get funding and a good shrink to help me with my issues. (And there are issues!)
Then, there's Shawn. Our relationship has had it's ups and downs, to be sure, but we seem to have the kinks worked out. I have never known anyone that has challenged me, angered me, or loved me the way that he has. Yup, I love him.

Just in case you think that I am shooting sunshine out of my a$$, there are still problems. Like any other couple, we have stuff that could be better, or improved upon. I just realized that the good outweighs the bad and sometimes we have to be reminded of that.
Biddie x


Heidi the Hick said...


Honey, you can shoot sunshine outta yer ass anytime you want! I know you can still swear like a trucker.

I also know how hard it is to keep looking at the positives when there's a lot of hard stuff in your life. But it's worth it. It's so worth it to cling to what's good.


Biddie said...

Heidi - You know, there are some things going on right now that have me down right freaked out, but nothing is as bad as losing a child.
I am blessed in so many ways and I am trying focus on that :)

Anonymous said...

I'm glad that you are counting your blessings, it can be a difficult thing to do sometimes.
Good for you!

Maggie Mae