Monday, May 04, 2009

& Faith

Last Wednesday my dear childhood friend, L, had a beautiful baby girl. This was a much wanted, highly anticipated second child for her and her husband.
April 29 should have been a joyous day, filled with laughter, love and tears of joy. Instead, April 29 will always be remembered as the day that Willow was born and died.

My heart is aching, breaking, filled with sadness. I don't know what to say to my friend, L, or how to comfort her.
Heck, I can't even deal with this in my head, make myself understand why this happened. This is where faith comes in, I suppose. Faith in our God, that everything happens for a reason, God works in mysterious ways, He has a plan for us and we have to be patient, blah, blah, blah.
It seems so unfair that a few short days ago I was holding a gorgeous, healthy new born baby while somewhere, a few short miles away, my friend and her family were mourning the loss of their precious gift.
It is so unfair. It's beyond tragic. I don't know how to make sense of it.
Right now, my faith is faltering.
I have no idea how L is going to ever recover. Since my faith is waning, maybe you all out there can pick up the slack for me a bit.
Please, think of L tonight and count your blessings.


Palm Springs Savant said...

Oh gosh, I am so sorry for your friend. The depth of sadness must be inexplicable. I will keep her and the family in my prayers.

Biddie said...

Palm Springs Savant - Thank you, Rick. I can not even tell you what kind of person L is. She and her family were a second family to me, and treated me so well..They are kind and generous, and I wish that I could take away their pain.
This is just soo sad.

Marni said...

So, so sad. Bug came home yesterday and told me her math teacher's twins died. She went in for a normal check up and they couldn't hear the heartbeats of those precious girls... both had passed away. She was only weeks away from delivery.

Really makes you wonder about God's plans sometimes.

Biddie said...

Marni - Omg. That is horrible. I don't even know what else to say....The poor lady.
I do wonder what the grand plan is.

Heidi the Hick said...

I don't think God plans those things. AT least, I hope not.

My faith falters daily but I manage to get it back again.

Still praying. That's all I can do.

Biddie said...

Heidi - Mine too. Keep praying, please. L really needs it. :)

coffeypot said...

The best thing you can do for L is to just be there. No talk. Just have a presence for her if she needs it. What was the problem?

Biddie said...

Coffeypot - I have no idea what happened, just that the baby did not survive. Nobody is talking about it, really, other than to say that Willow passed away.
I am going to do my best to let her know that I am here if she needs to talk. That's about all I can do, really.

dilling said...

there is no understanding in these circumstances...there is no treasuring life with the loss of life...maybe Willow was just not ready this time...prayers of love, acceptance, peace and resolve to your friends.

Biddie said...

dilling - Thank you for the prayers. I hope that L can feel the love that we are all sending her way.

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