Wednesday, June 06, 2007

I'm trying like hell not to write depressing posts. I am. Problem is, I am severely depressed right now. I am sleeping and crying right now.....That's it. That's all.

Shawn is finally working for a good company, but the last guy stiffed him, again. This means that I have to tell my 12 year old that we can't go to the school BBQ because I don't enough money for hot dogs and bus fare. I just don't know how much more I can take.

Shawn and I haven't spoken in days. It's killing me. I can't go on like this, but I don't know how to fix it....................

14 comments:

Stinkypaw said...

Hope things get better for you - hang in there and don't worry about crying too much. Sending you good thoughts. *hugs*

mjd said...

I hope things are getting better. You in my thoughts. In my depressed days, I found that even little steps forward made a difference. At least, I was moving forward. You said something awhile ago about a new doctor. Any help there?

Heidi the Hick said...

This is what makes depression such a bitch. the time that you most need to make a change is the time you least can. It's not a case of want to or need to. It just ISN'T.

Tiny steps. Tiny. As far as the front porch if that's as far as you can get.

Remember:

IT'S NOT PERMANENT.

YOU ARE LOVED.

Canadian flake said...

Hang in there and don't give up. The most important lesson I learned from my depression was to get through each day....one day at a time...one hour at a time..one minute at a time if need be...my life's motto now is..get through today, worry about tomorrow when it gets here...easier said than done I know but still necessary...

whimsicalnbrainpan said...

(((HUGS)))

First of all it is your blog so write whatever the hell you want to.

I'm sorry things are so rough for you right now. I wish I could make it all better. Just know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

her indoors said...

((((hugs))) and lots of them being sent to you, i so wish we could help more but i hope that knowing that i am thinking of you will help you get through another day xxxx

Camie Vog said...

The Vog family loves you, Biddie! Oh, and BeanieVog is wearing the shirt you sent her! I put it on her, and thought of you. Lots of Love to you. Email me if you want to vent.

xxooo

Marni said...

{{{ hugs }}} Hang in there, honey. Call me if you want. I'm here...

captain corky said...

I'm really sorry Biddie. Please hang in there.

dilling said...

new meds! hang in there! just MAKE yourself do one thing you don't want to do each day...no matter how small that seems!

CindyDianne said...

First, don't worry about writing depressing posts. If you want to write a post - do it. It is what a blog is all about. Second, remember that you are loved.

Heidi the Hick said...

I hope you're not writing new stuff today because you are sitting on the front porch watching the dogs.

And then come in cuz it's boilin frickin hot today.

Tod said...

And play with your dog lots and lots and lots.

DJ Andi said...

Sorry things are not going so well right now, but it is temporary. You know your blogging friends care and think/pray for you continuously.

Just take a deep breath and relax. I've been out of touch for awhile but I think of you often. You have had so much to deal with. I think things are turning.

Shawn is working for a good company!!!