Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Thanks for hanging in there. I know that I have been a bit rant-y and cranky lately.

I slept about 5 hours last night, and I spent the day with Jess. I am so exhausted.

Big time.

I spoke with her doctor today, and things are not looking good. Jessica's vital signs are unstable, and she needs to gain weight. Her blood sugars are great, thank goodness. Her fever is gone, but she still has tummy pains. She says that she is just not hungry.

I don't know what to do. If she doesn't eat, she won't regain any weight. If she doesn't gain weight, then her vital signs won't improve, and she won't be allowed to come home. I would be very surprised if she comes this week at all.

She has a new doctor this week. Her regular guy is on vacation, so she is seeing someone else. Of course, the buzz word for the day is EATING DISORDER.

I am so frustrated. I want the doctors to look beyond that. I do not think that she has a disorder. I really, honestly, don't.

The days are long and lonely for her, and she is becoming depressed. Of course, that in itself is another red flag for an eating disorder. There is no telling the doctors that she is bummed because she has spent almost all of her Christmas Holidays at the hospital, hooked up to an IV.
The longer that she sits in that room, the worse she feels. You can only watch so many movies and read so many magazines.

I want to badly to bring my baby home. More than anything, I just want her here with us again.

7 comments:

SkippyMom said...

Bridget don't you dare let them corral you into an eating disorder with Jess...you have done everything right and she obviously isn't trying not to eat or throwing up on purpose...it is evident from what you write. I hate to even say it, but the doctors have to do more tests and find out what is wrong.

Jess loves you too much to defy getting better on purpose [did that make sense?] I hope you know what I meant.

You keep repeating what a great Mom you are. Don't you realize you don't have to tell "us"....we already know that. - She is going to get better - like a bunch of "us" I wish I wasn't so far away.

Tell her we are thinking of her and we hope you all are better soon...hugs.

jAMiE said...

Thinking of you...i'm not sure what else to say...do take care of yourself!

Gabriel said...

I've read this post four times already. I still don't know what else to say.

It's all so unfair... Poor Jessica.

~JJ! said...

Oh Biddie. I'm sorry.

I wish I could help you in some way...

Send my love...take care of yourself too...

whimsicalnbrainpan said...

I'm sure you have already tried this but just in case, have you tempted her with her favorite foods?

I hate the catch 22 that she is in and I hate it even more that the doctors are misdiagnosing her. I hope her regular doctor returns soon.

(((HUGS)))

You are both in my thoughts and prayers.

debi said...

Maybe it's a good thing she is seeing 2 Drs. Maybe one of them will catch what the other is missing. Geez, I sure hope so. Is there anything she likes to eat at this point? Gage and I prayed for her a while ago. He remembers who you are and loves to pray. I know God works on a different time scale then we do but comon God,send us a little light here would ja? In his time, I know. love you, deb

Phoenix5 said...

What is it with doctors jumping the gun on diagnosing things these days? Is there some sort of contest for which doctor can diagnose a patient the fastest? Sheesh...

Wishing you all the best and praying hard...